Thursday, 31 October 2013

urgh! she is so pedestrian...

so...I entered a photo competition judged (in part) by Harmony Korine! <3 (wah?!)

a bunch of my photos are short listed and I would love if you could go and vote for some! 
you don’t have to sign up or anything its just a “like” button.
and you can just click through to the rest.
I would love to win, even though my chances are slim considering there are 2000+ images short listed but I love photography so i got to try!
so thank in advance! 

Tuesday, 29 October 2013

on being lost forever and ununderstandable.

So I keep forgetting to blog, or I don't feel like it. I use to love blogging and sharing my artwork and talking about what I do but it all just gets lost in my head now. remember livejournal?

I feel the link between me and the rest of the world growing bigger everyday.
I just don't fit in.
I know that sounds childish and sad but I feel this.
I don't find anything remotely appealing about where I am except for the old houses. and Kurt.
There is nothing to do here and if there is its just not quite right. like its a photocopy of a photocopy of a photocopy of what it should be.
Except for the movies, the cinema feels familiar, semi stale popcorn, skittles and hubba bubba stuck to the brightly coloured carpet. and dust , it always smells a bit like dust. I want to watch more movies than I do.
I do try and connect with people but I don't find any common ground and the truth is I would rather be on my own but that means I'm stuck with all these ideas and fears no one can help me with.

I try and turn these ideas in to photos, try to collaborate with other creatives but they don't get it. I don't know why. I'm not very good at communicating I guess.
nothing translates, the model waits, confused and I wonder and try to explain.
ok now look at me, relax,cool ok umm, do nothing,no, look awkward, wait no turn around, sit like this, no no umm , okay maybe just relax, look at me, now over there, ok one more, wait one more ok now we are done! yay! thanks!

I keep taking photos but I loose confidence, I don't want to be a photographer any more.

but then I do, I have an idea and its magical and wondrous and dreamy but it rarely works out I keep taking photos but I loose confidence, I don't want to be a photographer any more.

but then I do.
because I can't stop. because its apart of me.

try not to get my hopes up. work on the smaller ideas first,(boring) build up to the bigger ones.(what I really want to do) but when will I get to the bigger ones?

so many questions, so little time.

I'm having some pretty sad just happens. its ok.

Tuesday, 29 January 2013

The Ballad Of Kalindy Anne

Im in on the Ballad of website!

sometimes its really hard to remember you are good at making art, but you have to keep doing things you love even if you think you are actually terrible and eventually others will see your passion and love come out in your art.


Saturday, 19 January 2013

fawn mag

please go check out this fabulous magazine!
and the stone fox shoot is on the front page of the site!